i feel rotten

Over the years i have had an abiliyy to interpet or jump ahead of speaker and presentations and even emails. 90% of the time i am right . How ever this ability had to be the worse thing i could have , It allowd me to rush through things and some times miss key points. i do not know if it was to finish before everyone , my competetive side. Was it that being ahead of the game allowed ne to pick apart things making me look good i do not know.

i used to have a counter on this and my other blogs. After a while i found i was writing to please the counter mot me. The high hit days i would analyze what subject i spoke about and would write another on a similar subject just to see the graph points go higher.

The one thing i will never give up is my freedom , funny coming fro a slave . Freemon of thought and expression no one owns that or should.

There i have set this up now to what makes me feel rotten. After having a fantastic four days of Domination from SIr and Miss. They have used things from my wish list , they have come up with some very evil things all for me. What did i do for them say no to a task that was in their right to have and would be of no consequence to me. i said i really would not like to put a counter on my site one that only Miss will look at fo rthe above reasons.

i was totally wrong in saying this i should have said yes Miss. Yes my eys are bad right now and i could have asked her to put it on for me she would have with no problem. Instead she was understanding and said it realy was just for her she enjoys those things. Late last night i felt so bad i sent an email asking if she would not mind installing it for me.

This is not a punishment blog where i have been instructed to apologize in public not this it is from the heart from me to Sir and Miss . You own every thing in my slave life that includes the layout of this blog the thoughts are mine the look is yours.
I apologize for the disrespect i will work on my lack of trust and showing of un-gratefulness