It's complicated

When one uses the phrase "It's complicated" under relations ships one would think that it is not complicated to see that this person is not single at least to me. To me it means asked me and I will tell you about it or it means if you want single with no attachments or problems then best look at the next profile.

So I am worried now, dominants are supposed to be trusted with a slave's safety having total control over them right. Well do they read the same things slaves do more over do they read. Not one nor two as that just might be a random bit of bad luck nope five in the past three days. Yes they have contacted me with wonderful thoughts on slavery and if I was 18 I would now be working for the price of a airline ticket. At 28 I could have gone anywhere and started new no problem. Three males and two females have gone through the course of at least five emails without reading my profile past the part of my handle then they must have skipped down to the fun stuff. Fter the first email then I see the sane routine finding out what I like what I do then the schedule of of when I will be able to relocate. Frustrated I put a simple question polite but straight forward. " you do know I am attached?" Not bad that they selected me based solely on my picture and introduction but the anger that follows because they did not read past my handle. Worse that I am offering slavery to some one that does not understand the words I use or perhaps cannot read them because their other side is busy with their other hand and in case they read this that means you were pleasuring yourself. Yes I know Mornignstar I am not acting very slave like but really it I wanted this level of intelligence I would put the handle of the lead in my dogs mouth and the collar on my neck. I know at least he would lead with authority.

Now of course not all dominants of the five acted with anger two did not write back. Tow of the five were discussing my blog on being a toy some thing to be used with attachments hmm wonder why I would not want attachment hmm No wonder I am a switch and if one of those dominants are a switch two watch out for your ass my first task would be to give them five profiles and ten seconds t review each on every wrong answer ten strokes of the paddle hmm think that would be enough?

I hope that the two who have not answeredd me back will prove my theory wrong.

Anticipation.

A better word I cannot think of when waiting for someone you have never met yet hope to turn over to them all the dark desires and feelings. I got there early and sat where I was supposed to an hour early.

Torture in a form as every male that turned the corner was immediately sized up and compared to what I thought should be. A few oh I hope not and one or tow of if this guy asks me my name I will only speak French to him. Of course as time went on there was the old question what am I doing here they all want younger males with huge organs to make suffer? So a few times I contemplated leaving but a friend of mine said I did a lot of pre-judging of some one I had never met.

Most of the time the ones I have met are shell dominants those that look and shout out commands but do not know how to dominate. They expect every slave to fall at their feet because they call themselves a Master.

Well today I met I hope one of the others. A male dominant who has thought and understanding. I did not have to keep anything in check I was calm when he walk up to me and calm when he left. I did not have to lead the discussion he did. He had questions no asking what I had done or wanted to do but that his desires would be met. He asked the questions but for one of the few times I felt a dominant actually listened to my answers. He has also warned me about breaking rules to get a punishment though he has said that his slave just needs to keep him informed of my thoughts and needs.

Now once tied up and bent over for him I do not know how comfortable I will be but I think if my feelings go right I will be enjoying my service as his slave. How nice not to have to think of what should happen next all that is required of me is to obey no thinking till after the session is over no planning before. How nice to be used again. From what I have surmised from his emails and conversation of today I will not be lacking in use nor have idle time when with him.