A session vs a task done by myself

Well with butt plug in and this makes it a few days in a row, i start the second of the writing assignments of today.

First i will say that the tasks given to me are of great enjoyment as not only do they help me get through mundane tasks Whey symbolize that my owners are thinking of me. How ever tasks done alone such as these i do not need a Dominant to propose them. i if not owned could and have int he past done all sorts of things and enjoyed it to a point. That absence of someone else telly you do so is a major difference as now i am pleasing some one else. Still there is a draw back as it is still my hand and judgment as to how things are done. If i decide to walk naked outside in the dark well i check to see if any is coming and where i stand how visible it is so even if a Dominant tells me to do so i am sort of in charge of how far i go..

In a session when the Dominant is there i am no longer in charge, it is not my hand controlling the paddle by another's. The sensation is so far superior to anything i could manufacture by myself. i inserted the but plug and when i met with some resistance well i slow down a Dominant might well not have. An evil mind seeing how something is proceeding can be so much more evil.

The real big major difference in it all is trust. When i do a task alone i only have to trust myself as i am ultimately in control. When in session i have given over my control and trust to someone else and that is a wild ride. No choice well sort of , no idea what will happen, nothing to do but suffer and enjoy.

So cleaning the floors with a butt plug in alone is fun. Cleaning Misses floors with a brush in my mouth on all fours while she tugs on a leash attached to my balls Whacking my ass while pointing out marks that i missed, well heaven comes to mind.